man, do I feel like a woman.

My throat feels a little soar, but it's getting better.
I'm addicted to America's best dance crew... what an amazing show.
Whoever can dance is awssome. I've been jamming to the shows, but
boy I probably look like a goof.
I can't believe it's already march. March is thaaa season of spring, but
Illinois's been snowing quite a bit. It hasn't stopped snowin. Life is going
too quicky it seems. I've just really been fooling around this week, and not
doing as much- but I think this weekend I'm going to study my brains out.
All my classes have been pretty smooth. I just can't wait for Spring break
honestly, I need my homies.. hahahaa
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n take care homies!
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smoking red roses

I started casually smoking again.. although I don't think it's bad- because I do not smoke that often. Just when I go to the shows, and when I'm thinking.
I recieved the prettiest roses on Valentines.. I'm so scared of it wilting because of the fragileness of my relationship between myself and B. I have to say it's not the greatest.
The shows that I go to are actually making me have like a permanent high. I'm not exactly sure why.
I heard one of the most beautiful cries in a song- (I forgot the song name but it is by a band named MewithoutYou.)
I met this girl in class and we started to hang out. She's the one that let me hear the song. For some reason I relate with her better than the girls around me. I really love it when females are more masculine. Sometimes the "I don't give a shit" attitude is necessary.
I miss home.

subtle suffocation

Growing apart fruits,
there comes a time when the roots separate,
and then we have time to think
then, who are you truly?
lifted away from the branch,
and you finally set foot on your own,
that is when you realize that it is
then, time for you evolve or to rot....

So, I am single now. I'm not sure if my heart's become solid, but I don't have intense emotions. Right when it happend, subtle tears came flowing down, but it wasn't the right amount of tears. Although I miss the company, I'm beginning to think it was for our own futures. He's going to Chicago to become something big, I'm going to go somewhere else to become something. I feel like there is much more time needed for me to travel and discover different people.
I can't really say I'm depressed, because I feel like I've blocked that kind of statis. Being depressed means months of recovering, and I don't need that in my life right now. More like I don't want that in my life, because I can't concentrate on anything if I am in that situation.
I've become to realize the comfort of being independent. It's nice to actually be ok, being on your own. I'm able to notice who I am more because I'm not putting that effort towards someone else.

I think I have a curse, I never have a boyfriend on V-day.
It's ok though, I'm against V-day. Capatalists trying to snag money on all of us!